Oh My God, I feel soo fat. I hate Halloween.
Went out for an Indian with my parents and I had the korma. I'd love to eat the slightly healthier and spicier food but my mouth just can't handle it. Damn it. Plus I had a beer with my korma and a few Smirnoff Ices when I got home. My sister was having a little get together with some friends so we had the booze in for that. And loads of sweets too. I didn't eat that many but it doesn't help nonetheless.
Yesterday was no help either because of a friend's 18th Birthday Party, but that's another post for tomorrow.
Well I'm off to feel miserable and sick for the rest of the night. Bleurghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Awh it's all over
Finished my two week run in the musical. Had so much fun, it hurts that it's finished. Again I was a sniff away from doing my ultimate passion and BANG! It's taken away from me again where I have to go back to the hellhole that is 6th Form and wait what is a AAGE for me to begin my three year acting course (should I get in, but doubting won't help)
Got several hugs from various cast members thanking me for taking part and I wished them luck for the European leg of the tour. Then my good crew friend (!) came behind me, ruffled my hair and said 'shame to see you go again' We had a massive hug and told him if he's about London or my hometown to get in touch. He's promised to do that and said he looks forward to partying with me sometime.
Maan waiting for the lifestyle is loong! But it's been such a laugh for now and I'm definately treasuring the memories for a lifetime, hopefully I'll be lucky enough to work with such amazing people again. :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Got several hugs from various cast members thanking me for taking part and I wished them luck for the European leg of the tour. Then my good crew friend (!) came behind me, ruffled my hair and said 'shame to see you go again' We had a massive hug and told him if he's about London or my hometown to get in touch. He's promised to do that and said he looks forward to partying with me sometime.
Maan waiting for the lifestyle is loong! But it's been such a laugh for now and I'm definately treasuring the memories for a lifetime, hopefully I'll be lucky enough to work with such amazing people again. :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
A Problem with Acting Training...
Well some of my friends have recieved offers from Universities - I am so happy for them because these are Unis they've really liked. One friend has recieved a email from Oxford saying they are 'actively looking' at her UCAS application. I really hope she gets in there, she's so smart and I'm always asking her for help with English essays.
Good for them - at least they definately have places to go to come next year on results day, as for me, well it's a case of auditioning everywhere and hoping, NOT praying (too atheist for that) that somewhere will have seen my love, passion and talent for acting and give me a place.
I've decided not to be too fixed on going somewhere in London, it's not possible to get specifically in London and it's expensive to live there too. Also people I know in Performing Arts didn't train London, often out in Essex or Glasgow and moved to London after training to be closer to auditions and agents. So now I'm not too fussed where I go as long as it's got good facilities and a active lifestyle.
I'll admit I'm terrified of the small possibility of not getting in anywhere because it would mean having to go through clearing which I do not want to go through. 3 years of doing something that I would never love as much as acting? Christ, it would kill me!
All I'm saying is, I'm bringing my A-Game to the auditions so everyone else better watch...
Good for them - at least they definately have places to go to come next year on results day, as for me, well it's a case of auditioning everywhere and hoping, NOT praying (too atheist for that) that somewhere will have seen my love, passion and talent for acting and give me a place.
I've decided not to be too fixed on going somewhere in London, it's not possible to get specifically in London and it's expensive to live there too. Also people I know in Performing Arts didn't train London, often out in Essex or Glasgow and moved to London after training to be closer to auditions and agents. So now I'm not too fussed where I go as long as it's got good facilities and a active lifestyle.
I'll admit I'm terrified of the small possibility of not getting in anywhere because it would mean having to go through clearing which I do not want to go through. 3 years of doing something that I would never love as much as acting? Christ, it would kill me!
All I'm saying is, I'm bringing my A-Game to the auditions so everyone else better watch...
Monday, 25 October 2010
X Factor: Aiden Grimshaw - Diamonds are Forever - The X Factor Live show 3 - i...
So for you lovely Americans checking out the blog and then for the English people who don't watch the X Factor, I thought I'd share the really awesome talent of Aiden Grimshaw who is now in the final 11. X Factor is pretty much the english American Idol.
He covered Diamonds Are Forever, not the Shirley Bassey one but the Artic Monkeys one (I wasn't even aware they'd covered that song)
But yes, I thought this was an amazing performance, musically and visually. I'm really digging his intensity when he performs.
Enjoy!
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Example - What We Made
Noticed that I have a few page views in America and Canada so thought I'd share some of the talent here in Britain. Example is a pretty awesome rapper. His new album is 'Won't Go Quietly' which is great for clubbing and that, I'll probably share some of my faves from that later.
This is probably my favourite of his old songs, beats in this are pretty sick and makes a good point about faults of the human race.
Enjoy!
Bebek Kedi xx
Monday, 18 October 2010
Passion is Ignited.....again
So I'm taking part in a touring musical for two weeks. I took part in the same musical about a year ago and made good friends with a crew member - lovely guy - no lie I had a lil crush on him.
Didn't think he would be about this year because the musical had gone on a European tour so assumed he was on that or in London. So to my surprise I saw him across the road, he spotted me and waved came over and we had the usual 'Hi, how are you?' 'I'm good thanks, you?' conversation before we went seperate ways for the day. Later on we had a rehearsal and he had to squeeze past our group. He did the usual hand on arm to ease someone out the way thing on me and joked 'Jeez Kedi, move out the way!' and proper stroked my arm. I of course joked back 'Oooh sorry!'. A bit later a friend told me he spotted the arm stroking I pretended not to have notice - haha I loved that while he was like 'How could you not notice?!'
It's fun playing tricks
Didn't think he would be about this year because the musical had gone on a European tour so assumed he was on that or in London. So to my surprise I saw him across the road, he spotted me and waved came over and we had the usual 'Hi, how are you?' 'I'm good thanks, you?' conversation before we went seperate ways for the day. Later on we had a rehearsal and he had to squeeze past our group. He did the usual hand on arm to ease someone out the way thing on me and joked 'Jeez Kedi, move out the way!' and proper stroked my arm. I of course joked back 'Oooh sorry!'. A bit later a friend told me he spotted the arm stroking I pretended not to have notice - haha I loved that while he was like 'How could you not notice?!'
It's fun playing tricks
Sunday, 17 October 2010
Katy Perry "Teenage Dream" Cover by Eric Lumiere
So following on with the Teenage Dream theme I have going, I found this little gem last night when listening to Example's cover. I love that he's switched the lyrics to fit a guy singing it so any girl listening will love it. Well worth a listen :)
Saturday, 16 October 2010
Example - Teenage Dream (Katy Perry cover)
I think this the best cover ever. And I'm already biased because I generally love Example's music. There's something oddly hot about a guy singing about skinny jeans haha.
Also his new video for 'Two Lives' is out so go check that out.
Give me your wardrobe!
This week I've had to deal with my sister moaning at me because I've borrowing her clothes. Waste of her time really because I'll keep borrowing haha.
Wednesday the 13th of October was International Suit Up Day (if you don't get it then go watch 'How I Met Your Mother') I asked her the week before to borrow a blazer for this important day. She said 'I'll think about it. The day before I asked again with her then talling me that she planned on wearing it. Bitch, I knew she planned this.
So I woke up on the 13th and realised I overslept and needed to leave the house within 10 mins. Grabbing clothes I yanked on a pair of leggings when I heard that horrible ripping noise somewhere near my calf. I had no other ideas so I ran onto the sister's room and shoved on a pair of grey jeggings and stripey vest and then grabbed my own boots and cardi. I got through almost the whole day at school before she saw me and began the tirade of moans that I always borrow her clothes and go in her room.
Correction: The door was open, giving me open invitation to just stroll in.
I got home before her and was a having a chat with me mum when she mentioned my sister had text her to complain about my clothes stealing.
Correction: I never steal her clothes. I borrow them and then put them back before she gets home - with exception to one top I borrowed for a party that then really smelt of men's deoderant after sharing a bed with a guy - I got it washed then put it back.
The thing is, she gets clothes that I really want and I like to borrow them because they're there. And it helps that she is a size bigger than me, so everything usually fits which works out better.
She just needs to get over it. And close her bedroom door once in a while.
Wednesday the 13th of October was International Suit Up Day (if you don't get it then go watch 'How I Met Your Mother') I asked her the week before to borrow a blazer for this important day. She said 'I'll think about it. The day before I asked again with her then talling me that she planned on wearing it. Bitch, I knew she planned this.
So I woke up on the 13th and realised I overslept and needed to leave the house within 10 mins. Grabbing clothes I yanked on a pair of leggings when I heard that horrible ripping noise somewhere near my calf. I had no other ideas so I ran onto the sister's room and shoved on a pair of grey jeggings and stripey vest and then grabbed my own boots and cardi. I got through almost the whole day at school before she saw me and began the tirade of moans that I always borrow her clothes and go in her room.
Correction: The door was open, giving me open invitation to just stroll in.
I got home before her and was a having a chat with me mum when she mentioned my sister had text her to complain about my clothes stealing.
Correction: I never steal her clothes. I borrow them and then put them back before she gets home - with exception to one top I borrowed for a party that then really smelt of men's deoderant after sharing a bed with a guy - I got it washed then put it back.
The thing is, she gets clothes that I really want and I like to borrow them because they're there. And it helps that she is a size bigger than me, so everything usually fits which works out better.
She just needs to get over it. And close her bedroom door once in a while.
Sunday, 10 October 2010
Home is where the Sun, Sea and Shots are at
Ok, so it's not in England. But on Friday I had a little experience that reminded me how much I miss Turkey.
Finishing 6th Form early, I decided to head down the High Street, sort some bank stuff out and get home before dance. A friend gave me a lift to the top of the street and I began the long walk down. On the road was a loong queue of traffic waiting for the lights to change. Strutting my stuff down the road I heard a wolf whistle and two guys were leaning out the window of their van getting a proper good look. 'Nice legs' and the typical 'Alright there gorgeous?' No joke, these guys were fit too. Like seriously, I so would. A little inward laugh, I winked at them and carried on walking down.
Ahh that reminds me of the hot days in Turkey just casually walking down the street and having fit men check you out and wolf whistle. Hey they do it all the time but you can't deny that it still feels good.
I like remembering little things like this so I may post more holiday memories before they escape my mind. Happy days :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Finishing 6th Form early, I decided to head down the High Street, sort some bank stuff out and get home before dance. A friend gave me a lift to the top of the street and I began the long walk down. On the road was a loong queue of traffic waiting for the lights to change. Strutting my stuff down the road I heard a wolf whistle and two guys were leaning out the window of their van getting a proper good look. 'Nice legs' and the typical 'Alright there gorgeous?' No joke, these guys were fit too. Like seriously, I so would. A little inward laugh, I winked at them and carried on walking down.
Ahh that reminds me of the hot days in Turkey just casually walking down the street and having fit men check you out and wolf whistle. Hey they do it all the time but you can't deny that it still feels good.
I like remembering little things like this so I may post more holiday memories before they escape my mind. Happy days :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Tuesday, 5 October 2010
Ridin' Solo
A week by myself in Turkey in September before I start Uni.
Yeah a big decision I know, but for some reason I feel it's something I need to do before beginning a new chapter of life, if not the trip is the beginning of the chapter. I'm already going away for two weeks with a close friend in July through to August.
As much I'm sure I'll enjoy her company very much, we're going at a very hot time of year and we'll probably want to do the touristy things like get pissed drunk; flirt and maybe even shag outrageously, sunbathe all day, never eat and go on excursions. A week to myself in the cooler month of September means I can do more exploring without the exhausting heat - as much as I adore the extreme heat, even I realise it is difficult to do much extensive walking without needing to stop every 100 metres to wipe of the sweat and drink a gallon of water.
It's also a sort of 'gap year', only not a year long and I'm not back-packing in Thailand or New Zealand, something about it doesn't appeal to me. Well it's a thought I'm particularly fond of and want to go through.
But it's going to cost money which I don't have. Hmm...
Yeah a big decision I know, but for some reason I feel it's something I need to do before beginning a new chapter of life, if not the trip is the beginning of the chapter. I'm already going away for two weeks with a close friend in July through to August.
As much I'm sure I'll enjoy her company very much, we're going at a very hot time of year and we'll probably want to do the touristy things like get pissed drunk; flirt and maybe even shag outrageously, sunbathe all day, never eat and go on excursions. A week to myself in the cooler month of September means I can do more exploring without the exhausting heat - as much as I adore the extreme heat, even I realise it is difficult to do much extensive walking without needing to stop every 100 metres to wipe of the sweat and drink a gallon of water.
It's also a sort of 'gap year', only not a year long and I'm not back-packing in Thailand or New Zealand, something about it doesn't appeal to me. Well it's a thought I'm particularly fond of and want to go through.
But it's going to cost money which I don't have. Hmm...
Monday, 4 October 2010
Not Fair
Wow, some people move quick don't they? Since starting back at 6th Form I haven't had the time to socialise with people week nights or week ends. This has included texting, busy my life has been.
I realised last week that I hadn't texted N for a while and that the weekend just gone would be my first weekend to see people. It'd been about 4 weeks which isn't that long if you ask me. Considering I'd seen him the week before school started again. Wednesday night I spoke to a friend to ask if I'd left it too late, he said I had but he understood my busy life and said if you just explain I'm sure he won't mind and will be flattered that you told him and want to meet up.
I come home, get cosy in bed and switch the laptop on, log into Facebook and see the most horrible thing ever - 'N is in a relationship with M' - no joke her name begins with an M. I hadn't even frigging texted him yet! I'm more upset than I'd be willing to suggest.
But I don't get it, we met in June and few more times that month and in July, I go away for two weeks in a country that is notorious for it's flirtatious and often gorgeous men - you'd think a guy would lose the faith but he didn't - we met up a few more times in August and the once before back at 6th Form. Somehow in those four weeks of term he's met another girl and pushed me aside.
Soo, I was determined to not look at her FB profile in case I got upset, but curiosity got the better of me and I found that she is exactly 7 months younger than me, pretty damn christian (nothing wrong with that but still it's info) and I'm prettier than her!!! Seriously?! What's going on?!
I sound so vain and shallow but like I've said, I'm just a little more upset than I'm willing to admit. Well, it's a new week, I have a healthy eating detox thing going on and I'm going to forget about him. There are plenty more guys out there, hell, why not take a week's holiday in Turkey at Christmas and see what happens haha.
I realised last week that I hadn't texted N for a while and that the weekend just gone would be my first weekend to see people. It'd been about 4 weeks which isn't that long if you ask me. Considering I'd seen him the week before school started again. Wednesday night I spoke to a friend to ask if I'd left it too late, he said I had but he understood my busy life and said if you just explain I'm sure he won't mind and will be flattered that you told him and want to meet up.
I come home, get cosy in bed and switch the laptop on, log into Facebook and see the most horrible thing ever - 'N is in a relationship with M' - no joke her name begins with an M. I hadn't even frigging texted him yet! I'm more upset than I'd be willing to suggest.
But I don't get it, we met in June and few more times that month and in July, I go away for two weeks in a country that is notorious for it's flirtatious and often gorgeous men - you'd think a guy would lose the faith but he didn't - we met up a few more times in August and the once before back at 6th Form. Somehow in those four weeks of term he's met another girl and pushed me aside.
Soo, I was determined to not look at her FB profile in case I got upset, but curiosity got the better of me and I found that she is exactly 7 months younger than me, pretty damn christian (nothing wrong with that but still it's info) and I'm prettier than her!!! Seriously?! What's going on?!
I sound so vain and shallow but like I've said, I'm just a little more upset than I'm willing to admit. Well, it's a new week, I have a healthy eating detox thing going on and I'm going to forget about him. There are plenty more guys out there, hell, why not take a week's holiday in Turkey at Christmas and see what happens haha.
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