Friday morning I woke up with a sore throat and then through the day I kept having chills and sudden waves of goosebumps. By 3rd period at school I was shattered and looking ghostly pale according to friends (that's two steps below my normally ivory complexion so I knew something was up) and we had a drama rehearsal where I had coughing fits throughout and I felt so wiped out by the end of it. Luckily with no lessons last I could met my mum down the local high street and help her with some errands before going home.
I knew I was ill because I went straight upstairs to change into trackies and a hoodie and brought down a huge blanket and watched tv. I managed dinner (just) and went to my room after The Simpsons. I then fell asleep between 7-7:30pm, which is nothing like me on a friday night. I then awoke at 12am with a burning forehead and feeling like I was in a ice plunge pool - not good. This went on til 1:30am before I slept again.
Today has been an improvement though. I woke at 12pm and have just chilled downstairs watching Come Dine with Me all day wrapped in a blanket, not eating anything and just drinking water with the occasional Diet Coke. My dad was in the kitchen and came into the living room with a logan berry which had been steeped in vodka, handed it to me and said 'That will definitely clear your cold if anything'. Strong stuff, but I think it might've worked. I went to bed at 10pm and I'm still awake now feeling almost normal again. Though I'm terrified of falling asleep in case I get worse again.
The highlights of my day? Having a conversation with a gorgeous guy on Twitter, Cher Lloyd was voted off the X Factor and right now I'm listening to Michael Buble - perfect end to a day I think.
Saturday, 11 December 2010
Tuesday, 7 December 2010
When boredom kicks in...
In the middle of doing an essay and I'm a bit stuck on what to write next. So to pass the time of boredom trying to think, I'm trying to find an interesting stage name.
Trying to keep the same intials and I love anything Spanish (as well as Turkish) so I'm running on a Spanish theme with this. Here's what I have so far...
Kedi Flores Kedi Mancini
Kedi Ruiz Kedi Molinero (my actual surname in Spanish)
Kedi Morales Kedi Moreira
Kedi Medina Kedi Mendoza
Trying to keep the same intials and I love anything Spanish (as well as Turkish) so I'm running on a Spanish theme with this. Here's what I have so far...
Kedi Flores Kedi Mancini
Kedi Ruiz Kedi Molinero (my actual surname in Spanish)
Kedi Morales Kedi Moreira
Kedi Medina Kedi Mendoza
Monday, 6 December 2010
Holiday Memory #1
Things are getting to a state of too cold and foggy, like, all the time now. Feel very ill, but that could be a 'run-down' feeling because it's nearing the end of term. So to cheer me up (and maybe spark memories of your own) I'ma share my first memory of this year's holiday to Turkey:
Travelling to Fethiye from Birmingham:
It's 5:30pm and the taxi turned up to pick up the family, Tiny had already arrived and was a little bit upset but she cheered up pretty soon. Fran turned up only seconds after the taxi did said a quick goodbye and we got in to leave for Birmingham airport. Because of a unexpected incident on the roads we were forced to make a detour and arrived at Birmingham with not much time to spare at check in.
We joined what was now a short queue and us four girls sat on our cases watching the people around us while mum and dad sorted passports and that out. Next to us was a queue all headed to Ibiza and a group of people all different ages wearing t-shirts with various things on the back. Here was the one that made us laugh:
If you've seen the last episodes of 'Friends' then you'll know how funny this was.
Also in the queue for Ibiza was the most gorgeous looking guy who had model looks - no joke - chiselled jawline, short brown hair and amazing physique. We all tried not to stare at him, we really did.
Check in sorted, we found a Wetherspoons to eat at, with very little time left before boarding.
Holiday tip: If you're in a rush then get a Caesar Salad, doesn't take long to make and the dressing allows for quick eating. The others had burgers which is not easy for quick eating and gives you indigestion later.
In a previous conversation with LK, he asked me if I would mind picking up some booze to take out with us and he'd pay us back - it's a cheaper and easier way of restocking alcohol during the busy season - so a quick run around duty-free and next thing I knew, we'd boarded the plane! I was like a little kid at Christmas, getting so excited!
As usual for me, I quietly freaked out during take-off but relaxed once we got going. Because we got a 8:00pm flight out it was less busy and Tiny and Trina (my sister) took a row each at the back. Me and Fran shared our row by sitting with our feet meeting in the middle - cosy.
It was a uneventful flight with a little interest in the lightening outside that we could see flying past. We were edging closer and closer to Dalaman.
Learning from last year when I'd left the plane in jeans, vest top and a cardigan, I took no chances and changed into a pair of shorts just before landing. Thank god I did! Despite the fact it was 2:00am in the morning Turkish time, it was still bloody hot compared to England! We queued for visas, claimed our luggage and then we were outside in beautiful Turkey! I was still like an excited kid and weirdly wide awake for some at what was now 3am!
We were stood in the pick up area looking around for our taxi but couldn't spot it. My dad went in search while the 5 females waited, me manning up in case of trouble haha. Eventually my dad found Memet, the same guy from last year - lovely person, he really is - and we were on our way out of Dalaman towards the town of Fethiye.
It was a 40 minute drive and everyone else fell asleep, but all I can remember is the adrenaline and excitement, recognising parts of the route from last year and trying to guess how far away we were, and making plans for this year. I woke Fran about 20 minutes before we arrived thinking it was about 5. Ooops.
Eventually we arrived at the apartment, and I bounded up the stairs with my suitcase. I insisted on showing Fran the apartment and the views around it. By this point dawn was breaking over the beautiful town:
From memory it was a bit darker than the photo, but yes, home sweet home.
Let the holiday begin :-)
Travelling to Fethiye from Birmingham:
It's 5:30pm and the taxi turned up to pick up the family, Tiny had already arrived and was a little bit upset but she cheered up pretty soon. Fran turned up only seconds after the taxi did said a quick goodbye and we got in to leave for Birmingham airport. Because of a unexpected incident on the roads we were forced to make a detour and arrived at Birmingham with not much time to spare at check in.
We joined what was now a short queue and us four girls sat on our cases watching the people around us while mum and dad sorted passports and that out. Next to us was a queue all headed to Ibiza and a group of people all different ages wearing t-shirts with various things on the back. Here was the one that made us laugh:
Also in the queue for Ibiza was the most gorgeous looking guy who had model looks - no joke - chiselled jawline, short brown hair and amazing physique. We all tried not to stare at him, we really did.
Check in sorted, we found a Wetherspoons to eat at, with very little time left before boarding.
Holiday tip: If you're in a rush then get a Caesar Salad, doesn't take long to make and the dressing allows for quick eating. The others had burgers which is not easy for quick eating and gives you indigestion later.
In a previous conversation with LK, he asked me if I would mind picking up some booze to take out with us and he'd pay us back - it's a cheaper and easier way of restocking alcohol during the busy season - so a quick run around duty-free and next thing I knew, we'd boarded the plane! I was like a little kid at Christmas, getting so excited!
As usual for me, I quietly freaked out during take-off but relaxed once we got going. Because we got a 8:00pm flight out it was less busy and Tiny and Trina (my sister) took a row each at the back. Me and Fran shared our row by sitting with our feet meeting in the middle - cosy.
It was a uneventful flight with a little interest in the lightening outside that we could see flying past. We were edging closer and closer to Dalaman.
Learning from last year when I'd left the plane in jeans, vest top and a cardigan, I took no chances and changed into a pair of shorts just before landing. Thank god I did! Despite the fact it was 2:00am in the morning Turkish time, it was still bloody hot compared to England! We queued for visas, claimed our luggage and then we were outside in beautiful Turkey! I was still like an excited kid and weirdly wide awake for some at what was now 3am!
We were stood in the pick up area looking around for our taxi but couldn't spot it. My dad went in search while the 5 females waited, me manning up in case of trouble haha. Eventually my dad found Memet, the same guy from last year - lovely person, he really is - and we were on our way out of Dalaman towards the town of Fethiye.
It was a 40 minute drive and everyone else fell asleep, but all I can remember is the adrenaline and excitement, recognising parts of the route from last year and trying to guess how far away we were, and making plans for this year. I woke Fran about 20 minutes before we arrived thinking it was about 5. Ooops.
Eventually we arrived at the apartment, and I bounded up the stairs with my suitcase. I insisted on showing Fran the apartment and the views around it. By this point dawn was breaking over the beautiful town:
Let the holiday begin :-)
Friday, 3 December 2010
Bleurgh
Feeling crap again. This is a problem with having the attitude of an actor. You can go from feeling super confident and having a slightly inflated ego to really dubious and paranoid.
Again I feel out of the loop with friends. A night at Pizza Hut was planned. I only heard about it today but the other's insisted they'd been talking about it all week. To be honest I would've quite gladly taken missed my class tonight to go with them. But again they assumed I couldn't go. Tossers.
Seriously, I love my friends, I never want to lost contact with them but I keep feeling detached and it upsets me, no lie. I think after this weekend I'm to organise a little thing this weekend with one of the girls maybe. We have some little Christmas things planned too so maybe things will improve then.
Damn it's late, should go get some sleep and recharge the batteries.
Iyi geceler. Bebek Kedi xx
Again I feel out of the loop with friends. A night at Pizza Hut was planned. I only heard about it today but the other's insisted they'd been talking about it all week. To be honest I would've quite gladly taken missed my class tonight to go with them. But again they assumed I couldn't go. Tossers.
Seriously, I love my friends, I never want to lost contact with them but I keep feeling detached and it upsets me, no lie. I think after this weekend I'm to organise a little thing this weekend with one of the girls maybe. We have some little Christmas things planned too so maybe things will improve then.
Damn it's late, should go get some sleep and recharge the batteries.
Iyi geceler. Bebek Kedi xx
Thursday, 2 December 2010
On the first day of Christmas...
Well it's December. Christmas is on it's way people!
It officially began for me last saturday when the town's Christmas lights were switched on. Usually I haed down the main street with the bestie and we see what various things are on offer and that. This year she was working and was then going to her boyfriends 18th (nice to have an invite!). So I went down about half an hour with her sister who I get on with just as well.
We mocked many things, I like to think we were putting on a churlish teenager front for the audience, something I like to do from time to time :D
So yes, lights went on with a hitch - one strand at a time, epic fail really - we hung around for another half hour and we went back to her house for pizza and watch 'On the Town' - I love Gene Kelly - and eventually I went home having had a great night.
But back to Christmas - tree and decorations are going up on friday and I do the present buying on saturday. Dreading it because I generally hate shopping for other people which I know is really selfish but I won't deny it.
Lucky I know what some people want, others are being dicks and leaving me to guess which is what I really hate about Christmas shopping. Grrr...
It officially began for me last saturday when the town's Christmas lights were switched on. Usually I haed down the main street with the bestie and we see what various things are on offer and that. This year she was working and was then going to her boyfriends 18th (nice to have an invite!). So I went down about half an hour with her sister who I get on with just as well.
We mocked many things, I like to think we were putting on a churlish teenager front for the audience, something I like to do from time to time :D
So yes, lights went on with a hitch - one strand at a time, epic fail really - we hung around for another half hour and we went back to her house for pizza and watch 'On the Town' - I love Gene Kelly - and eventually I went home having had a great night.
But back to Christmas - tree and decorations are going up on friday and I do the present buying on saturday. Dreading it because I generally hate shopping for other people which I know is really selfish but I won't deny it.
Lucky I know what some people want, others are being dicks and leaving me to guess which is what I really hate about Christmas shopping. Grrr...
Thursday, 25 November 2010
Bruno Mars - Talking To The Moon
Another Bruno Mars song I found while listening to 'Dancing in the Mirror'.
This song is so beautiful, full of soul and the music itself is great with his voice, especially in the chorus. The lyrics are so haunting and can be sad, depending on the context you take it in.
Absolutely love it. I don't think Bruno Mars can do any wrong.
Enjoy! xx
No Ifs, No Buts, No Education Cuts
Well David Cameron, are you listening?
Nick Clegg, don't think your off scot free, you backed out on a pledge against rises in University education fees. You lied to to your supporters who hoped for compromise, you let them down in the worst way possible. Some of these supporters are parents who want their children to have an affordable and worthwhile higher education - too expensive and the exerience is no longer worthwhile.
Forget losing sleep over your own financial problems, it will soon be over your own child who is starting life as an independent adult admidst the stress of finding work that will pay back the loans and also pay the bills for their new life.
What you don't understand Mr Cameron andMiss Mr Clegg is that education shouldn't come at a price as extortionate as that, we human beings have a right to a higher education should we want it, we choose to remain in education for 3 years to learn and gain more knowledge and the skills for expertise in our fields of specialities. Without this we cannot get jobs and build careers which make us happy and earn a respectable living.
It is clearly a case of forgetting about the people and looking out for your own backs it seems. The rich getting richer and getting a education they may not deserve or want and the poor getting poorer missing out on vital experiences and services to get them a degree when they have worked so hard to gain grades they need, but miss out purely because they don't have the money to go further and hone their academic talents.
To be honest guys you haven't really thought it through have you? Job cuts, higher taxes; raising the tuition fees isn't balancing the problem out. There is some level of idiocy involved if you think you can cut the number of jobs (which pay people funnily enough) and then raising the cost of things. For money to go in, it has to come out.
So here I speak for my generation and younger friends who now have an uncertain future and also for the parents of young children like my 10 and 6 year old cousins who now have the strain of saving money to let their children make something of themselves and also the risk of further rises in tuition fees.
Well, if your willing to raise it now then there is every chance you could do it in a few further years isn't there? You are typical politicians, we know when you're lying because your mouths move.
Nick Clegg, don't think your off scot free, you backed out on a pledge against rises in University education fees. You lied to to your supporters who hoped for compromise, you let them down in the worst way possible. Some of these supporters are parents who want their children to have an affordable and worthwhile higher education - too expensive and the exerience is no longer worthwhile.
Forget losing sleep over your own financial problems, it will soon be over your own child who is starting life as an independent adult admidst the stress of finding work that will pay back the loans and also pay the bills for their new life.
What you don't understand Mr Cameron and
It is clearly a case of forgetting about the people and looking out for your own backs it seems. The rich getting richer and getting a education they may not deserve or want and the poor getting poorer missing out on vital experiences and services to get them a degree when they have worked so hard to gain grades they need, but miss out purely because they don't have the money to go further and hone their academic talents.
To be honest guys you haven't really thought it through have you? Job cuts, higher taxes; raising the tuition fees isn't balancing the problem out. There is some level of idiocy involved if you think you can cut the number of jobs (which pay people funnily enough) and then raising the cost of things. For money to go in, it has to come out.
So here I speak for my generation and younger friends who now have an uncertain future and also for the parents of young children like my 10 and 6 year old cousins who now have the strain of saving money to let their children make something of themselves and also the risk of further rises in tuition fees.
Well, if your willing to raise it now then there is every chance you could do it in a few further years isn't there? You are typical politicians, we know when you're lying because your mouths move.
Sunday, 21 November 2010
R.I.P. Adil
I found out this morning that the guy stabbed outside school died this morning. I nearly cried hearing the news but I continued on with the day in shock - it didn't seem real.
I got a phone call at 4:00pm from a friend asking if I wanted a lift up to the village to the place where it happened. A memorial had been organised for him. We turned up and there were quite a few people there already, it was so beautiful; flowers, candles and pictures were laid, everyone surrounded the shrine many crying, holding friends. One of Adil's closest friends said a few words and a couple of jokes which many of us smile, he treated the situation so well when he must have been hurting so much inside.
We had a moment of closing our eyes and thinking of Adil then a moment of clapping for him to celebrate his life. Two floating lanterns were lit and sent off into the sky which everyone watched with tears in their eyes. I thought I wouldn't cry, but with the atmosphere and having my own memories of Adil, my eyes overflowed. I would've love to have known him better but sadly I never will.
I know naming him may give away my anonymity, but Adil isn't a nameless statistic - he was a real person who was happy, funny, just an amazing person, he never really had a bad word to say about anyone and no one had a bad thing to say about him. What happened was a great injustice, I hope the bastards responsible rot in jail for what they did. Big love goes to his friends who tried to protect him when it happened and also to Nish, Adil's girlfriend - she has the support of everyone in 6th Form and her friends.
Adil, you will be sorely missed by anyone and everyone who knew you, I will miss your smile and laugh and seeing you and Nish around town together, looking so happy. You be gone in body, but you are always with us in our hearts and memories.
Rest in Peace and sleep tight xxx
I got a phone call at 4:00pm from a friend asking if I wanted a lift up to the village to the place where it happened. A memorial had been organised for him. We turned up and there were quite a few people there already, it was so beautiful; flowers, candles and pictures were laid, everyone surrounded the shrine many crying, holding friends. One of Adil's closest friends said a few words and a couple of jokes which many of us smile, he treated the situation so well when he must have been hurting so much inside.
We had a moment of closing our eyes and thinking of Adil then a moment of clapping for him to celebrate his life. Two floating lanterns were lit and sent off into the sky which everyone watched with tears in their eyes. I thought I wouldn't cry, but with the atmosphere and having my own memories of Adil, my eyes overflowed. I would've love to have known him better but sadly I never will.
I know naming him may give away my anonymity, but Adil isn't a nameless statistic - he was a real person who was happy, funny, just an amazing person, he never really had a bad word to say about anyone and no one had a bad thing to say about him. What happened was a great injustice, I hope the bastards responsible rot in jail for what they did. Big love goes to his friends who tried to protect him when it happened and also to Nish, Adil's girlfriend - she has the support of everyone in 6th Form and her friends.
Adil, you will be sorely missed by anyone and everyone who knew you, I will miss your smile and laugh and seeing you and Nish around town together, looking so happy. You be gone in body, but you are always with us in our hearts and memories.
Rest in Peace and sleep tight xxx
Saturday, 20 November 2010
Surreal Day
It's strange how you think you'll act in a situation but you then act completely differently. It's also strange how you can see a situation from a long distance and then realise how shocking it is when it gets closer.
Yesterday a boy in the year below me was stabbed outside school. I didn't know him personally, but I've known his girlfriend since she was little. Though I haven't spoken to her much recently I really felt for her. The worry and despair she must be feeling is unimaginable. Last time I heard he was in a stable condition at hospital, which is the best thing you could hope for in a situation like this.
The school was completely shut down, no one was allowed in or out and after school no one could leave by themselves. People walking home needed an adult escort to walk them home, everyone else needed to picked up by an adult and driven home. Because I was going out with some friends later this evening, we waited at the gates for Skinny J's mum who let us go sit in the car and wait for her sister who is in lower school. On our way to the car we were stopped by two press men who asked if we were in the 6th Form. Immediately we responded 'No' as we'd been asked to by the school and headed for the car.
Looking back on this now I realise how such a surreal day this has been. Raising money and having a great day in support of Children in Need, a nationally happy day, then something as grim as this happens.
It absolutely puzzles me as to how someone can stab somebody with little thought to whether that person lives or not, how you can end a life so mindlessly. That could've happened, luckily it hasn't.
Funny how you see stuff like this in the press nearly everyday, to the point it just washes over you and then it happens so close by. Just stunning to the mind.
With any justice these mindless thugs will be dealt with properly. Hope the guy recovers soon and his girfriend fights through this difficult time.
Bebek Kedi xx
Yesterday a boy in the year below me was stabbed outside school. I didn't know him personally, but I've known his girlfriend since she was little. Though I haven't spoken to her much recently I really felt for her. The worry and despair she must be feeling is unimaginable. Last time I heard he was in a stable condition at hospital, which is the best thing you could hope for in a situation like this.
The school was completely shut down, no one was allowed in or out and after school no one could leave by themselves. People walking home needed an adult escort to walk them home, everyone else needed to picked up by an adult and driven home. Because I was going out with some friends later this evening, we waited at the gates for Skinny J's mum who let us go sit in the car and wait for her sister who is in lower school. On our way to the car we were stopped by two press men who asked if we were in the 6th Form. Immediately we responded 'No' as we'd been asked to by the school and headed for the car.
Looking back on this now I realise how such a surreal day this has been. Raising money and having a great day in support of Children in Need, a nationally happy day, then something as grim as this happens.
It absolutely puzzles me as to how someone can stab somebody with little thought to whether that person lives or not, how you can end a life so mindlessly. That could've happened, luckily it hasn't.
Funny how you see stuff like this in the press nearly everyday, to the point it just washes over you and then it happens so close by. Just stunning to the mind.
With any justice these mindless thugs will be dealt with properly. Hope the guy recovers soon and his girfriend fights through this difficult time.
Bebek Kedi xx
Thursday, 18 November 2010
Bruno Mars - Dancing In The Mirror [NEW MUSIC 2010]
So I've found the spare moment, and here is the Bruno Mars song 'Dancing in the Mirror'. Found this by accident but so glad I did!
It's got a hot beat to it, very Latin and just makes me wanna grab the next guy I see and just start a sexy dance!
Trust me, you will melt listening to his voice combined with the beat - B, E, A, UTIFUL!!!
Wednesday, 17 November 2010
NOOO!!!
There is some crazy shit happening with my laptop at the moment. In a nutshell as to what's wrong with it, I have to use Safe Mode with Networking to use the interne, it's a crappy layout of the web - kinda like how it was in the 90s - and I can't watch videos or listen to music.
As sad as this sounds I'm quite upset by it.
Music is very much a part of my life so I'm youtube at some point at least once a day, whether a I have an hour to myself with nothing to do, or I'm getting changed before any evening classes or, the most important time of all, before I go to bed.
It's pretty much the only thing that soothes me before I catch my Z's. I'll listen to anything depending what mood I'm in; Latin music like salsa and tango, acoustic versions of songs, club music or the songs that summed up Turkey, bringing back lush memories to fall asleep with.
Actually,while I'm here I'll recommend a song to listen to - 'Bruno Mars, Dancing in the Mirror. It's the hottest thing I've ever heard from him and any girls who already love him will fall harder now!
I'll try and link to tomorrow if I have a free moment in 6th Form tomorrow. But do check it out if you can.
Bebek Kedi xx
As sad as this sounds I'm quite upset by it.
Music is very much a part of my life so I'm youtube at some point at least once a day, whether a I have an hour to myself with nothing to do, or I'm getting changed before any evening classes or, the most important time of all, before I go to bed.
It's pretty much the only thing that soothes me before I catch my Z's. I'll listen to anything depending what mood I'm in; Latin music like salsa and tango, acoustic versions of songs, club music or the songs that summed up Turkey, bringing back lush memories to fall asleep with.
Actually,while I'm here I'll recommend a song to listen to - 'Bruno Mars, Dancing in the Mirror. It's the hottest thing I've ever heard from him and any girls who already love him will fall harder now!
I'll try and link to tomorrow if I have a free moment in 6th Form tomorrow. But do check it out if you can.
Bebek Kedi xx
Tuesday, 16 November 2010
Bad News for the X Factor
You just lost one of you're best talents on the show!
Sadly in Sunday nights results show, Aiden was in the singoff with KatieWeasel sorry, Waissel. It got to the judge's vote. Simon voted for Katie to stay, as did Cheryl and Danni and Louis voted for Aiden to stay. It got down to the public vote and it was a massive shock:
Aiden had the least votes. And was now out of the competition.
Me and my mum were watching and thought it didn't make sense that someone who had never been in the bottom two and seemed comfortably safe every week was suddenly unpopular. The postioning didn't match the judge's comments either after the performance.
Well it was sad to see him go but maybe things will be better not being associated with the X Factor anymore. Since that result show there has been so much controversy and rumours and reports going on about the show. I'll be missing this Saturday's show because of 'm at a party but hey, I'll have more fun there than watching the talented people struggle against the drama queens.
Best of luck to Aiden Grimshaw for his future. Don't let the talent go to waste :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Sadly in Sunday nights results show, Aiden was in the singoff with Katie
Aiden had the least votes. And was now out of the competition.
Me and my mum were watching and thought it didn't make sense that someone who had never been in the bottom two and seemed comfortably safe every week was suddenly unpopular. The postioning didn't match the judge's comments either after the performance.
Well it was sad to see him go but maybe things will be better not being associated with the X Factor anymore. Since that result show there has been so much controversy and rumours and reports going on about the show. I'll be missing this Saturday's show because of 'm at a party but hey, I'll have more fun there than watching the talented people struggle against the drama queens.
Best of luck to Aiden Grimshaw for his future. Don't let the talent go to waste :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Sunday, 7 November 2010
Aiden Grimshaw sings Nothing Compares 2 U - The X Factor Live show 5 - i...
Aiden Update: He's getting so much better!
I missed last week's X Factor but from what I heard he sang a slower 'Thriller'. Sounds ok actually. So stuck at home with back spasms I saw this week's with the theme 'American Anthems'.
Again this was an amazing performance vocally and thought there was a hint of John Mayer in it. Seriously hope he makes it to the final.
Enjoy! xx
Winter is most definately here
Well the indicator to the seasons has confirmed it is now Winter - as has the sudden drop in temperature.
This indicator? It's a tree outside my house. This tree is pretty tall so I can easily see it sat in the living room or in my bedroom. It matches what the seasons are doing perfectly so I know when to wrap up or lose the layers.
It's gotten to the point of having lost most of it the leaves. The few clinging on won't be there for much longer. It looks horribly skeletal and grey. Winter's quite ugly at times isn't it?
This indicator? It's a tree outside my house. This tree is pretty tall so I can easily see it sat in the living room or in my bedroom. It matches what the seasons are doing perfectly so I know when to wrap up or lose the layers.
It's gotten to the point of having lost most of it the leaves. The few clinging on won't be there for much longer. It looks horribly skeletal and grey. Winter's quite ugly at times isn't it?
Saturday, 6 November 2010
Just too obsessive
So I was on Facebook - as you do- just having a nose around checking out a firend's holiday pics. Skinny J had spent about 2 weeks in Florida with her family and had done most things you do in the Sunshine State; go to Disney World, Universal Studios and Seaworld. Her parents renewed their vows on a boat out there too so there were some gorgeous pics of that.
Next to all the pictures though, was a little window that said something along the lines of 'Photo Memories - LK was tagged in SS' album 'Turkey 2010'' I know LK really well from the first holiday and we got on well again from this year's holiday so he's a bit like an older brother to me. Now I'm pretty nosy and love looking at other people's holiday photos so I clicked on it to check it out.
Well I wasn't expecting photoshopped pictures of the sunset with stuff like 'Seni Seviyorum <3 xxxxxxxxx' The kisses went on for a while so I've shortened it here. But she'd tagged all the guys from the bar too including LK. There many more pictures that were similar, including pictures of her with some of the guys.
Hmmm it looks just a tad clingy and crazy. Curious to know who this mad girl is, I looked at her profile and found out she's 14 or something. Craazy girl who seems quite innocent to me.
I thought I missed Turkey til I saw all that, clearly not that much. But then again I have 5 other people to share the memories with, plus some excellent photos and I keep in touch where I can.
Then again I guess everyone has their different ways of whiling the time until next summer.
Bebek Kedi xx
Next to all the pictures though, was a little window that said something along the lines of 'Photo Memories - LK was tagged in SS' album 'Turkey 2010'' I know LK really well from the first holiday and we got on well again from this year's holiday so he's a bit like an older brother to me. Now I'm pretty nosy and love looking at other people's holiday photos so I clicked on it to check it out.
Well I wasn't expecting photoshopped pictures of the sunset with stuff like 'Seni Seviyorum <3 xxxxxxxxx' The kisses went on for a while so I've shortened it here. But she'd tagged all the guys from the bar too including LK. There many more pictures that were similar, including pictures of her with some of the guys.
Hmmm it looks just a tad clingy and crazy. Curious to know who this mad girl is, I looked at her profile and found out she's 14 or something. Craazy girl who seems quite innocent to me.
I thought I missed Turkey til I saw all that, clearly not that much. But then again I have 5 other people to share the memories with, plus some excellent photos and I keep in touch where I can.
Then again I guess everyone has their different ways of whiling the time until next summer.
Bebek Kedi xx
Friday, 5 November 2010
Mehh
I really hate Autumn/Winter. Just for the miserable rain and crap weather and freezing cold - doesn't suit me at all.
So depressing too because the clocks have gone back, it was good for an extra hour of sleep but it's getting dark at 5:00pm now. It seems now daylight won't be seen until March now. Duude it sucks!
Another bummer at the moment is the lack of job that I desperately need. I can't fund a holiday with someone or not if I'm not raking in the pennies. Why the hell is it so difficult to find a part time weekend job? There must be loads of people who work during the week who want the weekend off!
Well there's not a lot I can do about it at the moment but keep looking and handing CV's in.
Hmm I really want some chocolate or muffin or something.
So depressing too because the clocks have gone back, it was good for an extra hour of sleep but it's getting dark at 5:00pm now. It seems now daylight won't be seen until March now. Duude it sucks!
Another bummer at the moment is the lack of job that I desperately need. I can't fund a holiday with someone or not if I'm not raking in the pennies. Why the hell is it so difficult to find a part time weekend job? There must be loads of people who work during the week who want the weekend off!
Well there's not a lot I can do about it at the moment but keep looking and handing CV's in.
Hmm I really want some chocolate or muffin or something.
Wednesday, 3 November 2010
Fraya's 18th
Hmm I lied when I said 'Another post for tomorrow'. It's been two days but I have the excuse of being busy.
So yes. Fraya's 18th birthday party. The day before Halloween so the theme was fancy dress and I went as the caped crusader Zorro. I wore mid calf length harem trousers, a gorgeous sheer gypsy style blouse with killer heels. Added of course was the trademark eye-mask and hat. Safe to say I was smokin.
So I turned up with Fran the Flapper Girl and we took two glasses of champagne and headed over to the girls table where we had a Bond Girl, two zombies from the Resident Evil game, a sexy pirate and Snow White. There were various tables for different groups of friends and we managed to fit 7 of us onto a 6 seater. We checked out everyone around us and I pointed out Freya's closer friends to them. They asked about B, the love of Fraya's life who happens to like me. I hadn't seen him yet and said if I did they'd know about it - I'll be hiding under the table with a bottle of wine.
There was hog roast which was pretty yum and then some mini desserts, so I had a few. Trust me, with the amount of dancing I did later I didn't need to worry about calories! Two bottles of wine were provided for each table so we picked a gorgeous rose. One bottle was enough for all 7 of us to get a glass each. Not enough I think.
I had a chat with Fraya a little later on and she was annoyed that B hadn't shown up yet. Her closer friends tried calling him but were getting no answers. Knowing that he would probably do anything for me, I got his number and texted him asking where he was. I got a reply which made me feel awkward because he's only met me once and replied straight away but ignored his closest friends. Hm. He had a poor excuse which resulted in us calling him a dickhead (I have no problem saying that because I have no mutual feelings for him)
Despite the small unhappiness of Fraya, we cheered her up by dancing to good music and drinking lots of alcohol for the next three hours. At the end of the night me and Fran went home and we slept on the sofas in the living room.
As usual I didn't wake up with a hangover :D
So yes. Fraya's 18th birthday party. The day before Halloween so the theme was fancy dress and I went as the caped crusader Zorro. I wore mid calf length harem trousers, a gorgeous sheer gypsy style blouse with killer heels. Added of course was the trademark eye-mask and hat. Safe to say I was smokin.
So I turned up with Fran the Flapper Girl and we took two glasses of champagne and headed over to the girls table where we had a Bond Girl, two zombies from the Resident Evil game, a sexy pirate and Snow White. There were various tables for different groups of friends and we managed to fit 7 of us onto a 6 seater. We checked out everyone around us and I pointed out Freya's closer friends to them. They asked about B, the love of Fraya's life who happens to like me. I hadn't seen him yet and said if I did they'd know about it - I'll be hiding under the table with a bottle of wine.
There was hog roast which was pretty yum and then some mini desserts, so I had a few. Trust me, with the amount of dancing I did later I didn't need to worry about calories! Two bottles of wine were provided for each table so we picked a gorgeous rose. One bottle was enough for all 7 of us to get a glass each. Not enough I think.
I had a chat with Fraya a little later on and she was annoyed that B hadn't shown up yet. Her closer friends tried calling him but were getting no answers. Knowing that he would probably do anything for me, I got his number and texted him asking where he was. I got a reply which made me feel awkward because he's only met me once and replied straight away but ignored his closest friends. Hm. He had a poor excuse which resulted in us calling him a dickhead (I have no problem saying that because I have no mutual feelings for him)
Despite the small unhappiness of Fraya, we cheered her up by dancing to good music and drinking lots of alcohol for the next three hours. At the end of the night me and Fran went home and we slept on the sofas in the living room.
As usual I didn't wake up with a hangover :D
Sunday, 31 October 2010
Oh My God, I feel soo fat. I hate Halloween.
Went out for an Indian with my parents and I had the korma. I'd love to eat the slightly healthier and spicier food but my mouth just can't handle it. Damn it. Plus I had a beer with my korma and a few Smirnoff Ices when I got home. My sister was having a little get together with some friends so we had the booze in for that. And loads of sweets too. I didn't eat that many but it doesn't help nonetheless.
Yesterday was no help either because of a friend's 18th Birthday Party, but that's another post for tomorrow.
Well I'm off to feel miserable and sick for the rest of the night. Bleurghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
Went out for an Indian with my parents and I had the korma. I'd love to eat the slightly healthier and spicier food but my mouth just can't handle it. Damn it. Plus I had a beer with my korma and a few Smirnoff Ices when I got home. My sister was having a little get together with some friends so we had the booze in for that. And loads of sweets too. I didn't eat that many but it doesn't help nonetheless.
Yesterday was no help either because of a friend's 18th Birthday Party, but that's another post for tomorrow.
Well I'm off to feel miserable and sick for the rest of the night. Bleurghhhhhhhhhhhhhh...............
Awh it's all over
Finished my two week run in the musical. Had so much fun, it hurts that it's finished. Again I was a sniff away from doing my ultimate passion and BANG! It's taken away from me again where I have to go back to the hellhole that is 6th Form and wait what is a AAGE for me to begin my three year acting course (should I get in, but doubting won't help)
Got several hugs from various cast members thanking me for taking part and I wished them luck for the European leg of the tour. Then my good crew friend (!) came behind me, ruffled my hair and said 'shame to see you go again' We had a massive hug and told him if he's about London or my hometown to get in touch. He's promised to do that and said he looks forward to partying with me sometime.
Maan waiting for the lifestyle is loong! But it's been such a laugh for now and I'm definately treasuring the memories for a lifetime, hopefully I'll be lucky enough to work with such amazing people again. :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Got several hugs from various cast members thanking me for taking part and I wished them luck for the European leg of the tour. Then my good crew friend (!) came behind me, ruffled my hair and said 'shame to see you go again' We had a massive hug and told him if he's about London or my hometown to get in touch. He's promised to do that and said he looks forward to partying with me sometime.
Maan waiting for the lifestyle is loong! But it's been such a laugh for now and I'm definately treasuring the memories for a lifetime, hopefully I'll be lucky enough to work with such amazing people again. :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Wednesday, 27 October 2010
A Problem with Acting Training...
Well some of my friends have recieved offers from Universities - I am so happy for them because these are Unis they've really liked. One friend has recieved a email from Oxford saying they are 'actively looking' at her UCAS application. I really hope she gets in there, she's so smart and I'm always asking her for help with English essays.
Good for them - at least they definately have places to go to come next year on results day, as for me, well it's a case of auditioning everywhere and hoping, NOT praying (too atheist for that) that somewhere will have seen my love, passion and talent for acting and give me a place.
I've decided not to be too fixed on going somewhere in London, it's not possible to get specifically in London and it's expensive to live there too. Also people I know in Performing Arts didn't train London, often out in Essex or Glasgow and moved to London after training to be closer to auditions and agents. So now I'm not too fussed where I go as long as it's got good facilities and a active lifestyle.
I'll admit I'm terrified of the small possibility of not getting in anywhere because it would mean having to go through clearing which I do not want to go through. 3 years of doing something that I would never love as much as acting? Christ, it would kill me!
All I'm saying is, I'm bringing my A-Game to the auditions so everyone else better watch...
Good for them - at least they definately have places to go to come next year on results day, as for me, well it's a case of auditioning everywhere and hoping, NOT praying (too atheist for that) that somewhere will have seen my love, passion and talent for acting and give me a place.
I've decided not to be too fixed on going somewhere in London, it's not possible to get specifically in London and it's expensive to live there too. Also people I know in Performing Arts didn't train London, often out in Essex or Glasgow and moved to London after training to be closer to auditions and agents. So now I'm not too fussed where I go as long as it's got good facilities and a active lifestyle.
I'll admit I'm terrified of the small possibility of not getting in anywhere because it would mean having to go through clearing which I do not want to go through. 3 years of doing something that I would never love as much as acting? Christ, it would kill me!
All I'm saying is, I'm bringing my A-Game to the auditions so everyone else better watch...
Monday, 25 October 2010
X Factor: Aiden Grimshaw - Diamonds are Forever - The X Factor Live show 3 - i...
So for you lovely Americans checking out the blog and then for the English people who don't watch the X Factor, I thought I'd share the really awesome talent of Aiden Grimshaw who is now in the final 11. X Factor is pretty much the english American Idol.
He covered Diamonds Are Forever, not the Shirley Bassey one but the Artic Monkeys one (I wasn't even aware they'd covered that song)
But yes, I thought this was an amazing performance, musically and visually. I'm really digging his intensity when he performs.
Enjoy!
Tuesday, 19 October 2010
Example - What We Made
Noticed that I have a few page views in America and Canada so thought I'd share some of the talent here in Britain. Example is a pretty awesome rapper. His new album is 'Won't Go Quietly' which is great for clubbing and that, I'll probably share some of my faves from that later.
This is probably my favourite of his old songs, beats in this are pretty sick and makes a good point about faults of the human race.
Enjoy!
Bebek Kedi xx
Monday, 18 October 2010
Passion is Ignited.....again
So I'm taking part in a touring musical for two weeks. I took part in the same musical about a year ago and made good friends with a crew member - lovely guy - no lie I had a lil crush on him.
Didn't think he would be about this year because the musical had gone on a European tour so assumed he was on that or in London. So to my surprise I saw him across the road, he spotted me and waved came over and we had the usual 'Hi, how are you?' 'I'm good thanks, you?' conversation before we went seperate ways for the day. Later on we had a rehearsal and he had to squeeze past our group. He did the usual hand on arm to ease someone out the way thing on me and joked 'Jeez Kedi, move out the way!' and proper stroked my arm. I of course joked back 'Oooh sorry!'. A bit later a friend told me he spotted the arm stroking I pretended not to have notice - haha I loved that while he was like 'How could you not notice?!'
It's fun playing tricks
Didn't think he would be about this year because the musical had gone on a European tour so assumed he was on that or in London. So to my surprise I saw him across the road, he spotted me and waved came over and we had the usual 'Hi, how are you?' 'I'm good thanks, you?' conversation before we went seperate ways for the day. Later on we had a rehearsal and he had to squeeze past our group. He did the usual hand on arm to ease someone out the way thing on me and joked 'Jeez Kedi, move out the way!' and proper stroked my arm. I of course joked back 'Oooh sorry!'. A bit later a friend told me he spotted the arm stroking I pretended not to have notice - haha I loved that while he was like 'How could you not notice?!'
It's fun playing tricks
Sunday, 17 October 2010
Katy Perry "Teenage Dream" Cover by Eric Lumiere
So following on with the Teenage Dream theme I have going, I found this little gem last night when listening to Example's cover. I love that he's switched the lyrics to fit a guy singing it so any girl listening will love it. Well worth a listen :)
Saturday, 16 October 2010
Example - Teenage Dream (Katy Perry cover)
I think this the best cover ever. And I'm already biased because I generally love Example's music. There's something oddly hot about a guy singing about skinny jeans haha.
Also his new video for 'Two Lives' is out so go check that out.
Give me your wardrobe!
This week I've had to deal with my sister moaning at me because I've borrowing her clothes. Waste of her time really because I'll keep borrowing haha.
Wednesday the 13th of October was International Suit Up Day (if you don't get it then go watch 'How I Met Your Mother') I asked her the week before to borrow a blazer for this important day. She said 'I'll think about it. The day before I asked again with her then talling me that she planned on wearing it. Bitch, I knew she planned this.
So I woke up on the 13th and realised I overslept and needed to leave the house within 10 mins. Grabbing clothes I yanked on a pair of leggings when I heard that horrible ripping noise somewhere near my calf. I had no other ideas so I ran onto the sister's room and shoved on a pair of grey jeggings and stripey vest and then grabbed my own boots and cardi. I got through almost the whole day at school before she saw me and began the tirade of moans that I always borrow her clothes and go in her room.
Correction: The door was open, giving me open invitation to just stroll in.
I got home before her and was a having a chat with me mum when she mentioned my sister had text her to complain about my clothes stealing.
Correction: I never steal her clothes. I borrow them and then put them back before she gets home - with exception to one top I borrowed for a party that then really smelt of men's deoderant after sharing a bed with a guy - I got it washed then put it back.
The thing is, she gets clothes that I really want and I like to borrow them because they're there. And it helps that she is a size bigger than me, so everything usually fits which works out better.
She just needs to get over it. And close her bedroom door once in a while.
Wednesday the 13th of October was International Suit Up Day (if you don't get it then go watch 'How I Met Your Mother') I asked her the week before to borrow a blazer for this important day. She said 'I'll think about it. The day before I asked again with her then talling me that she planned on wearing it. Bitch, I knew she planned this.
So I woke up on the 13th and realised I overslept and needed to leave the house within 10 mins. Grabbing clothes I yanked on a pair of leggings when I heard that horrible ripping noise somewhere near my calf. I had no other ideas so I ran onto the sister's room and shoved on a pair of grey jeggings and stripey vest and then grabbed my own boots and cardi. I got through almost the whole day at school before she saw me and began the tirade of moans that I always borrow her clothes and go in her room.
Correction: The door was open, giving me open invitation to just stroll in.
I got home before her and was a having a chat with me mum when she mentioned my sister had text her to complain about my clothes stealing.
Correction: I never steal her clothes. I borrow them and then put them back before she gets home - with exception to one top I borrowed for a party that then really smelt of men's deoderant after sharing a bed with a guy - I got it washed then put it back.
The thing is, she gets clothes that I really want and I like to borrow them because they're there. And it helps that she is a size bigger than me, so everything usually fits which works out better.
She just needs to get over it. And close her bedroom door once in a while.
Sunday, 10 October 2010
Home is where the Sun, Sea and Shots are at
Ok, so it's not in England. But on Friday I had a little experience that reminded me how much I miss Turkey.
Finishing 6th Form early, I decided to head down the High Street, sort some bank stuff out and get home before dance. A friend gave me a lift to the top of the street and I began the long walk down. On the road was a loong queue of traffic waiting for the lights to change. Strutting my stuff down the road I heard a wolf whistle and two guys were leaning out the window of their van getting a proper good look. 'Nice legs' and the typical 'Alright there gorgeous?' No joke, these guys were fit too. Like seriously, I so would. A little inward laugh, I winked at them and carried on walking down.
Ahh that reminds me of the hot days in Turkey just casually walking down the street and having fit men check you out and wolf whistle. Hey they do it all the time but you can't deny that it still feels good.
I like remembering little things like this so I may post more holiday memories before they escape my mind. Happy days :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Finishing 6th Form early, I decided to head down the High Street, sort some bank stuff out and get home before dance. A friend gave me a lift to the top of the street and I began the long walk down. On the road was a loong queue of traffic waiting for the lights to change. Strutting my stuff down the road I heard a wolf whistle and two guys were leaning out the window of their van getting a proper good look. 'Nice legs' and the typical 'Alright there gorgeous?' No joke, these guys were fit too. Like seriously, I so would. A little inward laugh, I winked at them and carried on walking down.
Ahh that reminds me of the hot days in Turkey just casually walking down the street and having fit men check you out and wolf whistle. Hey they do it all the time but you can't deny that it still feels good.
I like remembering little things like this so I may post more holiday memories before they escape my mind. Happy days :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Tuesday, 5 October 2010
Ridin' Solo
A week by myself in Turkey in September before I start Uni.
Yeah a big decision I know, but for some reason I feel it's something I need to do before beginning a new chapter of life, if not the trip is the beginning of the chapter. I'm already going away for two weeks with a close friend in July through to August.
As much I'm sure I'll enjoy her company very much, we're going at a very hot time of year and we'll probably want to do the touristy things like get pissed drunk; flirt and maybe even shag outrageously, sunbathe all day, never eat and go on excursions. A week to myself in the cooler month of September means I can do more exploring without the exhausting heat - as much as I adore the extreme heat, even I realise it is difficult to do much extensive walking without needing to stop every 100 metres to wipe of the sweat and drink a gallon of water.
It's also a sort of 'gap year', only not a year long and I'm not back-packing in Thailand or New Zealand, something about it doesn't appeal to me. Well it's a thought I'm particularly fond of and want to go through.
But it's going to cost money which I don't have. Hmm...
Yeah a big decision I know, but for some reason I feel it's something I need to do before beginning a new chapter of life, if not the trip is the beginning of the chapter. I'm already going away for two weeks with a close friend in July through to August.
As much I'm sure I'll enjoy her company very much, we're going at a very hot time of year and we'll probably want to do the touristy things like get pissed drunk; flirt and maybe even shag outrageously, sunbathe all day, never eat and go on excursions. A week to myself in the cooler month of September means I can do more exploring without the exhausting heat - as much as I adore the extreme heat, even I realise it is difficult to do much extensive walking without needing to stop every 100 metres to wipe of the sweat and drink a gallon of water.
It's also a sort of 'gap year', only not a year long and I'm not back-packing in Thailand or New Zealand, something about it doesn't appeal to me. Well it's a thought I'm particularly fond of and want to go through.
But it's going to cost money which I don't have. Hmm...
Monday, 4 October 2010
Not Fair
Wow, some people move quick don't they? Since starting back at 6th Form I haven't had the time to socialise with people week nights or week ends. This has included texting, busy my life has been.
I realised last week that I hadn't texted N for a while and that the weekend just gone would be my first weekend to see people. It'd been about 4 weeks which isn't that long if you ask me. Considering I'd seen him the week before school started again. Wednesday night I spoke to a friend to ask if I'd left it too late, he said I had but he understood my busy life and said if you just explain I'm sure he won't mind and will be flattered that you told him and want to meet up.
I come home, get cosy in bed and switch the laptop on, log into Facebook and see the most horrible thing ever - 'N is in a relationship with M' - no joke her name begins with an M. I hadn't even frigging texted him yet! I'm more upset than I'd be willing to suggest.
But I don't get it, we met in June and few more times that month and in July, I go away for two weeks in a country that is notorious for it's flirtatious and often gorgeous men - you'd think a guy would lose the faith but he didn't - we met up a few more times in August and the once before back at 6th Form. Somehow in those four weeks of term he's met another girl and pushed me aside.
Soo, I was determined to not look at her FB profile in case I got upset, but curiosity got the better of me and I found that she is exactly 7 months younger than me, pretty damn christian (nothing wrong with that but still it's info) and I'm prettier than her!!! Seriously?! What's going on?!
I sound so vain and shallow but like I've said, I'm just a little more upset than I'm willing to admit. Well, it's a new week, I have a healthy eating detox thing going on and I'm going to forget about him. There are plenty more guys out there, hell, why not take a week's holiday in Turkey at Christmas and see what happens haha.
I realised last week that I hadn't texted N for a while and that the weekend just gone would be my first weekend to see people. It'd been about 4 weeks which isn't that long if you ask me. Considering I'd seen him the week before school started again. Wednesday night I spoke to a friend to ask if I'd left it too late, he said I had but he understood my busy life and said if you just explain I'm sure he won't mind and will be flattered that you told him and want to meet up.
I come home, get cosy in bed and switch the laptop on, log into Facebook and see the most horrible thing ever - 'N is in a relationship with M' - no joke her name begins with an M. I hadn't even frigging texted him yet! I'm more upset than I'd be willing to suggest.
But I don't get it, we met in June and few more times that month and in July, I go away for two weeks in a country that is notorious for it's flirtatious and often gorgeous men - you'd think a guy would lose the faith but he didn't - we met up a few more times in August and the once before back at 6th Form. Somehow in those four weeks of term he's met another girl and pushed me aside.
Soo, I was determined to not look at her FB profile in case I got upset, but curiosity got the better of me and I found that she is exactly 7 months younger than me, pretty damn christian (nothing wrong with that but still it's info) and I'm prettier than her!!! Seriously?! What's going on?!
I sound so vain and shallow but like I've said, I'm just a little more upset than I'm willing to admit. Well, it's a new week, I have a healthy eating detox thing going on and I'm going to forget about him. There are plenty more guys out there, hell, why not take a week's holiday in Turkey at Christmas and see what happens haha.
Sunday, 19 September 2010
Fashion Block
Gahh it's a Sunday. Time to catch up on homework I could've done during the week and prepping myself for a week of draining school and fun but tiring dance.
It's also about planning my outfits for this week. Being in 6th Form means wearing normal day clothes, though the school have asked for smart office clothing as you would when you leave Uni and get a job.
That's not really relevant to me because my future career won't require pencil skirts, blouses and that, so I usually improvise with jumper dresses and leggings. It's not well liked but I'm sticking to my guns on this because I feel I look smart and to be honest the state of the Year 11s and 10s should be of a bigger concern.
Argh! Five days outfits that need to look reasonably smart and fashionable to a extent. Plus a couple of back ups are needed in case of severe weather change, fat days, sudden lack of confidence to pull off a look. It's a mental minefield on a Sunday night!
By the way, my stats tell me I have people from Canada, Taiwan and England checking out the blog. Feel free to comment people! Tell me what you like and don't like, I can't improve from nothing.
Bebek Kedi xx
It's also about planning my outfits for this week. Being in 6th Form means wearing normal day clothes, though the school have asked for smart office clothing as you would when you leave Uni and get a job.
That's not really relevant to me because my future career won't require pencil skirts, blouses and that, so I usually improvise with jumper dresses and leggings. It's not well liked but I'm sticking to my guns on this because I feel I look smart and to be honest the state of the Year 11s and 10s should be of a bigger concern.
Argh! Five days outfits that need to look reasonably smart and fashionable to a extent. Plus a couple of back ups are needed in case of severe weather change, fat days, sudden lack of confidence to pull off a look. It's a mental minefield on a Sunday night!
By the way, my stats tell me I have people from Canada, Taiwan and England checking out the blog. Feel free to comment people! Tell me what you like and don't like, I can't improve from nothing.
Bebek Kedi xx
Tuesday, 14 September 2010
Insomnia
It's cruel thing. Keeps you up all night with little or no sleep when you have to function properly the next day. My body is knackered but my mind is still spinning and just won't settle whatever I try.
I think my tiredness is starting to show through to others though. Last Friday one of my teachers had a chat with me, saying how he and another teacher of mine are both concerned for me at the moment, how I don't seem to be myself. I of course said to not worry, everything is fine and it's due to lack of sleep - which it partly is.
He has a point though. I actually don't feel like 'me' at the moment. Not feeling any particular emotions, just passing through the days feeling a bit... empty.
I can't suss out what's making me feel like this though. The thing is, none of the girls have said anything. But then again, I'm probably putting on a front which my teacher has seen through. Crafty sod.
Hmmm. Midnight musings over, I reckon I could burn some calories tossing and turning tonight.
Bebek Kedi xx
I think my tiredness is starting to show through to others though. Last Friday one of my teachers had a chat with me, saying how he and another teacher of mine are both concerned for me at the moment, how I don't seem to be myself. I of course said to not worry, everything is fine and it's due to lack of sleep - which it partly is.
He has a point though. I actually don't feel like 'me' at the moment. Not feeling any particular emotions, just passing through the days feeling a bit... empty.
I can't suss out what's making me feel like this though. The thing is, none of the girls have said anything. But then again, I'm probably putting on a front which my teacher has seen through. Crafty sod.
Hmmm. Midnight musings over, I reckon I could burn some calories tossing and turning tonight.
Bebek Kedi xx
Sunday, 12 September 2010
Out of the loop and pissed about it
I wish I knew what was wrong with me. Recently I've been feeling really down for no reason and I want to know why. The only time I've felt happy this past week has been either when I'm sleeping or at dancing - it really is a life saver.
Been feeling a bit out of the loop with people as well at the moment. It's in a general chat to more people and get know them better, that kind of thing. But it seems people don't feel like being friendly.
That's not my main concern though. But there is something bugging me in the back of my mind and I want to know what it is...
Been feeling a bit out of the loop with people as well at the moment. It's in a general chat to more people and get know them better, that kind of thing. But it seems people don't feel like being friendly.
That's not my main concern though. But there is something bugging me in the back of my mind and I want to know what it is...
Sunday, 5 September 2010
Facebook is being a Bitch
So I've gotten over that horrible 'post holiday blues syndrome' and am actually looking forward to a year back at 6th Form. Come October I will begin job hunting to get a part time job to pay for three weeks in Turkey next year without the parents around.
However Facebook keeps reminding me of Turkey through one particular person. Every single time I friggin log on or go to my home page, it says '"C", share the latest and send him a message' or 'Say hi to "C" and write on his Wall'.
Hmm luckily for you FB I clicked on his profile to see what pics he was tagged in - it's nice to see how much fun people have had in the same place you love - loads of people have written on his Wall and he doesn't reply to single one of them I've seen so far. Now why would I waste my time writing on a Wall when I'll get no reply?
It just annoys me that I'm constantly reminded of a place I can't go to for another year and while I wait I have to endure shite weather and the cold - both things I detest soo much!
However Facebook keeps reminding me of Turkey through one particular person. Every single time I friggin log on or go to my home page, it says '"C", share the latest and send him a message' or 'Say hi to "C" and write on his Wall'.
Hmm luckily for you FB I clicked on his profile to see what pics he was tagged in - it's nice to see how much fun people have had in the same place you love - loads of people have written on his Wall and he doesn't reply to single one of them I've seen so far. Now why would I waste my time writing on a Wall when I'll get no reply?
It just annoys me that I'm constantly reminded of a place I can't go to for another year and while I wait I have to endure shite weather and the cold - both things I detest soo much!
Wednesday, 1 September 2010
Fight Against the Flab
This Monday I started a healthy eating plan in a bid to lose some weight. It's only a little bit though, not like 2 stone or something - though that might be nice.
Friends that know I want to lose a little say I shouldn't because apparantly there's no need to. But I don't like my hips, so the only thing I want to do to just slim them down so I'm happier.
Another reason is that I'm starting double work soon so I want to be lighter for whoever's lifting me. I'd feel better knowing I'd made the effort to make their job a little easier.
However, this fight hasn't gone as well as I hoped; had a 99 cone today and some strawberry ice-cream last night when I got home. Doesn't help I'm having lunch at Costa tomorrow, damnnnn......
Well, I'ma try my best this week. Luckily next week normal term time routine starts so it should be easier to avoid junk food if I'm busy.
Bebek Kedi xx
Friends that know I want to lose a little say I shouldn't because apparantly there's no need to. But I don't like my hips, so the only thing I want to do to just slim them down so I'm happier.
Another reason is that I'm starting double work soon so I want to be lighter for whoever's lifting me. I'd feel better knowing I'd made the effort to make their job a little easier.
However, this fight hasn't gone as well as I hoped; had a 99 cone today and some strawberry ice-cream last night when I got home. Doesn't help I'm having lunch at Costa tomorrow, damnnnn......
Well, I'ma try my best this week. Luckily next week normal term time routine starts so it should be easier to avoid junk food if I'm busy.
Bebek Kedi xx
Friday, 27 August 2010
Tuesday, 24 August 2010
Dreams Confuse the Reality
So last night I was having 'thoughts' about a guy I really like. I'll call him N. We're sort of seeing each other though the last time we properly saw each other was at the BBQ his sister was having a few weeks ago. Not like Sunday night at a house party where he walked his sister there and I bolted out the car desperate for loo having just downed a can of Diet Coke shouting only 'Hi!' to him as I legged it past him.
Beforehand I'd been a bit confused because I thought I was going off him, especially after flirting with a barman in Turkey. I won't lie, I barely thought about N and actually forgot what he looked like one night. And trust me, this was definitely not down to drunkenness.
Coming home with holiday blues left me a bit confused then whether I like him or not. Then there was the BBQ and then I got over the holiday blues (with occasional homesickness)so I felt more certain. I still like the barman, no denying he was hot!
These thoughts were welcome then about N. But I had the craziest dream where this was all happening and more with the barman last night! This confused me when I woke up. I shouldn't let it, but my mind easily goes into overdrive. It doesn't overthink things logically I think, only when dreams interfere.
Christ I sound like a loony, but at least I got it off my chest.
Beforehand I'd been a bit confused because I thought I was going off him, especially after flirting with a barman in Turkey. I won't lie, I barely thought about N and actually forgot what he looked like one night. And trust me, this was definitely not down to drunkenness.
Coming home with holiday blues left me a bit confused then whether I like him or not. Then there was the BBQ and then I got over the holiday blues (with occasional homesickness)so I felt more certain. I still like the barman, no denying he was hot!
These thoughts were welcome then about N. But I had the craziest dream where this was all happening and more with the barman last night! This confused me when I woke up. I shouldn't let it, but my mind easily goes into overdrive. It doesn't overthink things logically I think, only when dreams interfere.
Christ I sound like a loony, but at least I got it off my chest.
Monday, 23 August 2010
The Results
So I got my results:
Drama - C
English Lit. - D
Psychology - U
I was pretty pleased with my first two, would've liked better in Drama, but it's a good pass so I won't complain too much. English I was just grateful to get that after the fail of a resit where I just sat there and wrote near enough sweet frig all.
Psychology was a different matter though. I'd already resat one paper then had to do another within a week. I'd felt confident while answering the questions and came out of both exams feeling like I'd done good. Apparantly not.
Luckily I'm still in 6th Form and still doing all three subjects. The compromise on Psychology is I resit the paper I did worst one which means having to teach myself by January to boost my overall grade.
A picnic followed with some of the girls to look back on our results, talk about the people who did shockingly bad or good. It turned into a better day because of this, as bad as this sounds, I felt good about being able to stay in 6th Form at least. Some people now have to look at their other options.
In fact I stayed up pretty late trying to cheer one friend up who unexpectedly got three Us. He wants to be a teacher and spent most of Thursday night worrying about having to do the year again with a bunch of retards and how it would affect his chances of getting into Uni to become a teacher. I sat there and tried to look at positives and help him realise that when he becomes a teacher it wouldn't matter about how he got there. Also, he slagged off the school, saying how shit it is and how it the school can go fuck itself. Well, it can't be that shit if some people have passed their AS Levels. To be honest, it was like talking to a brick wall so I eventually thought 'Fuck it, I'm off to bed' and did so.
Drama - C
English Lit. - D
Psychology - U
I was pretty pleased with my first two, would've liked better in Drama, but it's a good pass so I won't complain too much. English I was just grateful to get that after the fail of a resit where I just sat there and wrote near enough sweet frig all.
Psychology was a different matter though. I'd already resat one paper then had to do another within a week. I'd felt confident while answering the questions and came out of both exams feeling like I'd done good. Apparantly not.
Luckily I'm still in 6th Form and still doing all three subjects. The compromise on Psychology is I resit the paper I did worst one which means having to teach myself by January to boost my overall grade.
A picnic followed with some of the girls to look back on our results, talk about the people who did shockingly bad or good. It turned into a better day because of this, as bad as this sounds, I felt good about being able to stay in 6th Form at least. Some people now have to look at their other options.
In fact I stayed up pretty late trying to cheer one friend up who unexpectedly got three Us. He wants to be a teacher and spent most of Thursday night worrying about having to do the year again with a bunch of retards and how it would affect his chances of getting into Uni to become a teacher. I sat there and tried to look at positives and help him realise that when he becomes a teacher it wouldn't matter about how he got there. Also, he slagged off the school, saying how shit it is and how it the school can go fuck itself. Well, it can't be that shit if some people have passed their AS Levels. To be honest, it was like talking to a brick wall so I eventually thought 'Fuck it, I'm off to bed' and did so.
Wednesday, 18 August 2010
Results Tomorrow... Lush
12:05 - In 10 hours and 25 mins I'm going to recieve my AS results.
I know they're not as important as the A Levels themselves, but it has personal importance. I want the hours of revision and coursework to be worth something. Also, if it's unbelievably shocking bad results, then you're out of 6th Form, or have to repeat a year.
Neither of those things I want to do.
Mighty results God, I will give you all my carpets and Turkish delight on my bazaar stall if you give me good results!
I know they're not as important as the A Levels themselves, but it has personal importance. I want the hours of revision and coursework to be worth something. Also, if it's unbelievably shocking bad results, then you're out of 6th Form, or have to repeat a year.
Neither of those things I want to do.
Mighty results God, I will give you all my carpets and Turkish delight on my bazaar stall if you give me good results!
Tuesday, 17 August 2010
I am so convinced I suffer from S.A.D. I know it's seasonal but I don't know of one that's related to the weather, unless it's called 'W.A.D'.
Yesterday I posted a happy post about how much I love the sun. Today I sat in the living room waiting for dinner looking listlessly out the window to the dark sky and torrental rain that plummeted down. Suddenly I felt pretty down too. I shouldn't worry too much though. As far as I'm concerned it can rain all it wants on my head, it's just when it starts to rain inside my head there's a problem.
Anyway, I think I may have found a way to combat this. I've decided to try writing some monologues. But of course, these monologues will have a theme - and not just any theme. Yes lads and ladies they're holiday based monologues. The idea came to me after a crazy dream I had the other night about a friend running off to be with a guy she met on holiday this year; well I'm expanding on that theme to make a monologue out of it. I'll trawl reviews on Tripadvisor and other websites like that and then maybe create something out of them, just as another outlet to my blogging.
Got to say it's way more fun thinking up stuff like this instead of an essay for English Lit. Now we know where the curriculum is going wrong!
I've noticed that I've also made a post for everyday I've had this blog so far. Most of them have been posted in the dead of night where I'm still awake, but no worries - once I've started back at 6th Form the posts will probably more infrequent while I'm trying to keep up with work, but I'll try to post when I can because it's getting pretty enjoyable now.
Iyi geceler okuyucular :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Yesterday I posted a happy post about how much I love the sun. Today I sat in the living room waiting for dinner looking listlessly out the window to the dark sky and torrental rain that plummeted down. Suddenly I felt pretty down too. I shouldn't worry too much though. As far as I'm concerned it can rain all it wants on my head, it's just when it starts to rain inside my head there's a problem.
Anyway, I think I may have found a way to combat this. I've decided to try writing some monologues. But of course, these monologues will have a theme - and not just any theme. Yes lads and ladies they're holiday based monologues. The idea came to me after a crazy dream I had the other night about a friend running off to be with a guy she met on holiday this year; well I'm expanding on that theme to make a monologue out of it. I'll trawl reviews on Tripadvisor and other websites like that and then maybe create something out of them, just as another outlet to my blogging.
Got to say it's way more fun thinking up stuff like this instead of an essay for English Lit. Now we know where the curriculum is going wrong!
I've noticed that I've also made a post for everyday I've had this blog so far. Most of them have been posted in the dead of night where I'm still awake, but no worries - once I've started back at 6th Form the posts will probably more infrequent while I'm trying to keep up with work, but I'll try to post when I can because it's getting pretty enjoyable now.
Iyi geceler okuyucular :)
Bebek Kedi xx
Monday, 16 August 2010
Here Comes the Sun
There is nothing I love more than a warm sunny day. And when I say warm, I mean warm enough for shorts and vest tops. As I type this, I'm relaxing on the grass in my back garden with my school books beside me.
Yeah the school work isn't coming along as brilliantly as I thought it would. Though, to be fair, it's the friggin Summer Holidays! We should be chilling out every day socialising with friends outside and then having occaisional lazy days bumming out watching TV. School shouldn't even be thought about until results day or about two weeks before starting back when you get stationary and new uniform. Not gonna lie, I actually like the whole getting new stationary part of it because there are so many cute designs now!
So the only thing annoying me about this sunny day is that it's the first one we've had this August - no joke in the two weeks I've been home from Turkey it's either been raining or just really cloudy - sucks to be a British teenager sometimes.
I hope the sun stays now until the end of September, just so the weekends are nice too.
The only thing missing is a bar and a beach. ;D
Bebek Kedi xx
Yeah the school work isn't coming along as brilliantly as I thought it would. Though, to be fair, it's the friggin Summer Holidays! We should be chilling out every day socialising with friends outside and then having occaisional lazy days bumming out watching TV. School shouldn't even be thought about until results day or about two weeks before starting back when you get stationary and new uniform. Not gonna lie, I actually like the whole getting new stationary part of it because there are so many cute designs now!
So the only thing annoying me about this sunny day is that it's the first one we've had this August - no joke in the two weeks I've been home from Turkey it's either been raining or just really cloudy - sucks to be a British teenager sometimes.
I hope the sun stays now until the end of September, just so the weekends are nice too.
The only thing missing is a bar and a beach. ;D
Bebek Kedi xx
Sunday, 15 August 2010
My S List
Sun
Sea
Shots
Songs
Summer
Stars
Sunglasses
Scarves
Shoes
Short shorts!
Salsa dancing
Shopping!
Simple skin care - it's a miracle
Saturdays and Sundays - weekend baby!
Sand
Samir Nasri - hawt!
Sex
Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants - my favourite film
Sangria
Shakira - love her music
Strawberries
Shakespeare - to some this may be weird but I don't care - means I'm more cultured :P
Please note: this list is in no particular order
Sea
Shots
Songs
Summer
Stars
Sunglasses
Scarves
Shoes
Short shorts!
Salsa dancing
Shopping!
Simple skin care - it's a miracle
Saturdays and Sundays - weekend baby!
Sand
Samir Nasri - hawt!
Sex
Sisterhood of the Travelling Pants - my favourite film
Sangria
Shakira - love her music
Strawberries
Shakespeare - to some this may be weird but I don't care - means I'm more cultured :P
Please note: this list is in no particular order
Saturday, 14 August 2010
Blog Names Explained
So here's how I picked my name on Blogger:
I have an obsession with the country Turkey after two holidays there now. I'm learning the language which is what my name is in. 'Bebek Kedi' is Turkish for 'Baby Cat'. You may be asking 'Why not just have kitten in Turkish?' The reason for it not being that it is a joke on what all English girls are known as in Turkey by the men, 'Baby'. It's easier to remember than their actual name seeing as there are different girls to flirt/shag every week. Bit of a joke really, but I like the translation of baby into Turkish.
The Cat bit is very simple: according to the majority of my friends I resemble a cat. This was hated at first because I'm not much of a cat person. However, I've come around to it as it's worked in my favour of making them look more cat like with make up, which coincidentally pulls in more looks from guys.
Obviously Baby Cat doesn't sound too amazing in English, so it made sense to translate it into Turkish. It resulted with 'Bebek Kedi' which sounds waay more interesting to me.
Here's how I picked the blog name:
I have a long list of my favourite things which most of them begin with 'S'. I'll post the list at a later date. Blog names aren't really that easy to pick unless your blog has a specific thing to blog about, like football or fashion. So to find something about a teenage girls ramblings and unimportant thoughts was a bit more difficult.
Having just come back from holiday, I realised that there were three things which pretty much summed up my two weeks (as well as other things): Sun, Sea and Shots. Alliteration in a blog name is easier to remember too, thinking about it. I also realised that these three things are what I aspire to have in my life everyday in the future, so it made perfect sense.
And that guys and girls is how I came to pick my two names. Not exciting I know, but at least that's one thing cleared up!
Bebek Kedi xx
I have an obsession with the country Turkey after two holidays there now. I'm learning the language which is what my name is in. 'Bebek Kedi' is Turkish for 'Baby Cat'. You may be asking 'Why not just have kitten in Turkish?' The reason for it not being that it is a joke on what all English girls are known as in Turkey by the men, 'Baby'. It's easier to remember than their actual name seeing as there are different girls to flirt/shag every week. Bit of a joke really, but I like the translation of baby into Turkish.
The Cat bit is very simple: according to the majority of my friends I resemble a cat. This was hated at first because I'm not much of a cat person. However, I've come around to it as it's worked in my favour of making them look more cat like with make up, which coincidentally pulls in more looks from guys.
Obviously Baby Cat doesn't sound too amazing in English, so it made sense to translate it into Turkish. It resulted with 'Bebek Kedi' which sounds waay more interesting to me.
Here's how I picked the blog name:
I have a long list of my favourite things which most of them begin with 'S'. I'll post the list at a later date. Blog names aren't really that easy to pick unless your blog has a specific thing to blog about, like football or fashion. So to find something about a teenage girls ramblings and unimportant thoughts was a bit more difficult.
Having just come back from holiday, I realised that there were three things which pretty much summed up my two weeks (as well as other things): Sun, Sea and Shots. Alliteration in a blog name is easier to remember too, thinking about it. I also realised that these three things are what I aspire to have in my life everyday in the future, so it made perfect sense.
And that guys and girls is how I came to pick my two names. Not exciting I know, but at least that's one thing cleared up!
Bebek Kedi xx
Not gonna lie - this is definately not my first blog. I've had many reincarnations over the years since I was 14. I hope now this is the last one to last me a lifetime. The mix seems right; I have a new outlook on life and new plans and wishes I hope will work and come true one day. I'm also starting a new phase of my life and it figures that starting new things in new phases of life are more likely to stick (though this isn't always true).
I'm 17 heading into Year 13, so I'll be applying and auditioning for various drama colleges - yay I love the stress of it - as well as sitting my A Levels. It's times like this I wonder why I picked English Lit and it's also bollocks when it's said A-Levels are getting easier I really don't think they are.
I am so into my acting it's unreal, I love the idea of being a different person everyday if I want to and the attention from everyone while your on stage feels good - it means your doing a good job, either that or you're flashing. Dancing is another great thing in my life, I'm not cut out for vocational college but I love it so much I'll still be doing it into my 80s.
That's a brief look at me. Blog names will be explained in a later post.
Bebek Kedi xx
I'm 17 heading into Year 13, so I'll be applying and auditioning for various drama colleges - yay I love the stress of it - as well as sitting my A Levels. It's times like this I wonder why I picked English Lit and it's also bollocks when it's said A-Levels are getting easier I really don't think they are.
I am so into my acting it's unreal, I love the idea of being a different person everyday if I want to and the attention from everyone while your on stage feels good - it means your doing a good job, either that or you're flashing. Dancing is another great thing in my life, I'm not cut out for vocational college but I love it so much I'll still be doing it into my 80s.
That's a brief look at me. Blog names will be explained in a later post.
Bebek Kedi xx
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